memyselfandwhoami

What’s in a name?

You may be wondering about the name of my blog. It seems such a bold thing standing there on the front page. All about me? No. Why the name then?Let me expand. Yes, this blog is centred on personal experience. My personal experience involves living with BPD/EUPD amongst other, physical conditions. The narrative of BPD…… Continue reading What’s in a name?

Today bought tears of joy to my eyes.

I watched anxiously, but she went forth, head held high, ready to go.

For me, for my children, for advocacy

Why do you blog? I have always had a deep need to express myself and my emotions. I hold big big emotions, indescribably intense and passionate outpourings from my soul exude themselves, in often, self destructive ways when I keep them caged too long. As a child I had a wild imagination and penchant for…… Continue reading For me, for my children, for advocacy

Thankfulness

sometimes it involves facing a difficult situation and using a different lens to view it.

Typing through the night

When there is no one else but my own company, everyone else is sound asleep, I am the most alive I have ever been. It’s as if everything is amplified. Sounds that you would never notice in the hustle and bustle of the daytime start to echo around the house and the streets outside. Streetlights…… Continue reading Typing through the night

The power of language in owning our identity.

I was under the complete impression that every woman experienced fantasies,

How did I end up here?

Ultimately my aim in freeing myself of some negative labels and narratives that had defined me and had followed me around for most of my life, was somehow lost amongst the debris.

About me – Updated version

I know I can be hard to decipher, and sometimes my messages and good intentions get lost along the way.

January

January is a month for me to crawl through, a time for reflection and a time for resolution, not a time for me to rush or steam ahead. January is when I recover from the year before, take time to take stock of what happened and what did not, my successes, my failures, my almost…… Continue reading January

Butterfly.

I was asked to find drawings in real life, but instead of a drawing it had to be abstract. This gives me no end of anxiety, a task that has to be outside of the box. The parameters were seemingly endless, it must have been a trap, surely this is something that I shall inevitably…… Continue reading Butterfly.